Power

I wish I had the power to make problems go away, to cure sickness, to make people happy.

Moving.

I feel that I will be moving this year. Where, I don't know yet. Closer to work, out of state, I don't know.  I just made up my mind that I am moving SOMEWHERE, so I feel compeled to get rid of stuff.

Ebay

Why did I buy so much crap off of ebay in the last two years? I bought model train car kits I'll never assemble. I don't even have a layout set up. I bought so many antique phones and intercoms I have to get rid of some. I've been slowly getting rid off stuff. Projects I'll never finish, pure junk, etc. I just want it gone, NOW! So far, most of the stuff I've gotten rid of was stuff stored in the basement. 99% of the stuff I've gotten rid of also was stuff I've acquired in the past two years or so.

Profile Pic

My profile pic is of a tv in my collection. It is a Motorola Vt-71 from 1949. The picture tube is a whopping 7 inches. The tv does work, although it gives me fits sometimes. I have about 8 antique tvs and 4 are working.

My 'Hood is Depressing

My hometown is depressing. I don't know if it really is, or if its because its still winter and I'm cooped up in the house. I do know one thing, my neighborhood has gone downhill since I moved in. I don't want to be here next winter, even though I really love my vintage apartment.

Projects going on downtown. Will they bring people here? Only time will tell. I don't care anymore. I work an hour from here. If I stay at my curent job I do have to move closer. I can't handle the commute anymore.

Whatever.

I really want to take a year leave from work. Put my stuff in storage, and go live with my Mom for a while. Go explore someplace different. Maybe even learn some new job skills. Maybe I won't even want to come back. Maybe I'll find love. Who knows.  All I know I want to take a month off ASAP to spend down there to check on a couple things before I make a final decision.  I have my sisters wedding in June, so I have to come back anyway. After June, however, everything is open. And that is when I need to make my decision. If I don't move at this time, I need to go to school up here, then once school is over, if I still want to move, then thats what I'll do.

I have a hard time making up my mind. I think I am just scared to do something different. I keep talking about it. Its like the St Louis thing all over again. I kept talking about working in my friends piano restoration shop. I talked about it for YEARS, but in the end I did nothing.

I don't want to be away from family, yet we hardly spend time together. THe only family I really spend time with is my sister, dad, and a couple cousins.

Tony. it's time to live a little. You know you want to, you're just a fraidy-cat. Sometimes you just need to leave the comfort zone.